4.) Dreams are quite eye opening. What we think about when we aren't really thinking tells a lot about the type of people we are. I don't have multiple dreams I can remember anymore. It's always the same one, and I think that says a lot about me. I'm not somebody who forgets things easily. especially when I feel like I've done something wrong. I dwell on the past and I think my dreams interpret that.5.) I think the right amount of trauma could cause anyone to go mute. I wouldn't choose to live that way, but you never know what's going to happen. The amount I speak is decided by the people I'm with; if I'm comfortable, I can chat up a storm, but also, if I'm with someone I'm comfortable with, there's no need to fill any silence with necessary talking. If I meet new people, I am more likely to let them do the talking first, because I like to listen and watch so I can get an idea of their personality. Maybe if I listened to the finer things that people don't necessarily say up front, I would learn more. Speaking more can lead to many different positive things: meeting new people, new opportunities, and being an admired leader. But it's good to have balance. Listen to others how you want people to listen to you, and only speak when you have something important or meaningful to say.
6.) I tried learning Spanish, and it didn't really work out for me, but when I went to Brazil for the first time in 2015, I started learning Portuguese so I could communicate with the natives. I went back this summer, and my Portuguese has greatly improved since the first trip. I think it's important to at least attempt to learn a country's language if you are going to be visiting/living there. With that being said, if I stay in America my whole life, and never leave, I should only have to speak English, because that's our language and if anyone wants to come to America they should learn it. It's offensive if you enter another country without any ideas about their culture, customs, and language.
7.) I'm the type of person who remembers the small things. Big events can often become blurry in my mind, but little details stick with me. On top of that, I also remember everything bad or stupid that I've done. Even the tiniest things that don't really matter. I hate making mistakes. Sometimes I wish I had a better memory for the bigger picture. I mean, yeah, it's nice to remember what the 23rd day of 4th grade smells like, but I don't remember most of what happened last week. I also wish I had an easier time forgetting stupid things I've done. If I didn't dwell on the past, I'd probably be happier. The clearest whole events I can remember are things I've done wrong. The look of disappointment and sadness and anger are no easily forgotten. The fuzziest times come after the worst. I don't really ever remember being forgiven for things. I can remember doing them, and I can remember apologizing, I just can't ever recall being forgiven. Maybe this is why I can't forget. You're suppose to forgive and forget, but what happens if forgiveness never comes? Maybe if I could remember that it's okay to make mistakes, I'd have an easier time letting go.
Your answer about how trauma could cause anyone to go mute is really insightful. I'm not the victim of anything horrific or the survivor of a tragedy, so I have no idea what I would do or how I would react. Your admitting that a response to trauma is very personal I think reveals you as a very empathetic person. I like what you said about unnecessary talking. I don't enjoy or even see the point in talking about meaningless topics with meaningless people. What you said about remembering the mistakes you've made the most clearly was poignant and honest. I, unfortunately, feel the same way. I remember insults a thousand times more clearly than compliments.
ReplyDeleteYour answer about how trauma could cause anyone to go mute is really insightful. I'm not the victim of anything horrific or the survivor of a tragedy, so I have no idea what I would do or how I would react. Your admitting that a response to trauma is very personal I think reveals you as a very empathetic person. I like what you said about unnecessary talking. I don't enjoy or even see the point in talking about meaningless topics with meaningless people. What you said about remembering the mistakes you've made the most clearly was poignant and honest. I, unfortunately, feel the same way. I remember insults a thousand times more clearly than compliments.
ReplyDeleteThis is so me: "On top of that, I also remember everything bad or stupid that I've done. Even the tiniest things that don't really matter. I hate making mistakes." Thank you for such thoughtful and reflective responses, Kam. I really enjoy seeing what you think about things.
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